Coronavirus Coexistence DAY 83 Wednesday, June 3, 2020

Today I decided to watch the news a little. I don’t like watching the news. I have never liked it because it is only tragedies, lies, exaggerations and each TV channel simply tells us what they want to tell us, and for that I prefer to see positive things, people who encourage others, talk about how to help and face situations or anything cheerful. Anyway, today I was looking at the situation in the US and I thought… This can’t be real; people can’t really be doing all these things that I’m seeing. So today, I wanted to contact my friends there to see what they had to tell me (and it was very interesting)…

Therefore, I spent the whole day talking to friends that I hadn’t spoken to in a while and I caught up on their lives there in the US. I think that in the end, we are all feeling the same, there is uncertainty, fear and sadness to see that humanity does not learn and, as I fear, I do not believe that it will learn much… Kinda sad…

I don’t know what to do with myself anymore, if I don’t have my ballet classes I’m lost. I promise I’m trying to get some exercise in, but I’m being super bad. I’m going to have to punish myself… No dinner tonight! Hahaha, and that’s another one, I’m hungry at all f****g hours, it sucks, thank goodness, I have a lot of willpower and don’t eat every time I think about it, otherwise I’d already be rolling around…

Today’s interview was a bit chaotic, it is the first time that I was left talking to myself for a while and had a million interruptions. (I cut and pasted the “outtakes” at the end because it was just too funny). Thank goodness, no one watched it live… I’m thinking of not doing the live interviews and just recording them. I know these interviews are not very professional, but I think the people I interview are very interesting and I hope that over time you will see them or that other people will find them on my YouTube channel and find them useful…

Today was one of those days when you say: What is going on here? Sometimes I don’t know whether to laugh or cry (I always choose to laugh without a doubt) and sometimes I think: it’s better not to think, but that is harder for me unless I meditate and think about not thinking…

I have to tell you that today, just when I was writing this, already a little resigned to everything, I received a response to an interview request that I made a couple of days ago and it surprised me. Not only that they answer me, but that they agreed to the interview… Maybe I’m not doing things so bad…

Daily reflection: Why does everything seem so hard to do? In our minds, we know what we should do, but we don’t do it, we know what we shouldn’t do and we do it… It’s like revenge against our being; it’s being defiant with ourselves. Let’s see who wins, let’s see which part of our being is the strongest…

“Do not force competition with yourself, do or do not do what you have to or do not have to do.”